Saturday, February 11, 2012

Calmness in Chaos

People always say the best realization comes to you when you least expect it.
I always tell Brooke I feel the most calm and cozy when the house is clutter free and tidy (which is a challenge with twins, or any toddler running around). I have this perfect picture in my head of what that clutter free and tidy environment looks like. It looks like, a nice fire, snow falling, and a bubble bath.......well we don't have a fire place, I can't control when snow falls and we don't have a deep soaker tub.
On the way home from work I realized the clutter free and tidy environment I m searching for is actually a feeling. That same day on the way home from work I realized I felt calm and cozy already regardless of the chaotic environment I may have come from or may enter. It proved true. When I got home there was no fire, no snow falling and no bubble bath waiting for me and I was able to maintain the calm cozy feeling.
This is an important realization for me because it allows me to enjoy my family so much more, instead of searching (and continually trying to clean) to obtain something that is actually found within. No matter what my house looks like, no matter how bad my hair may look, and no matter how bloated I may feel on my night shifts the calmness in life comes from from within and not from an external source.
This week I challenge you to find that calmness in the chaos your week may bring......

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

This is what 5 am looks like...

As I said in my previous post I'm a nurse, and I work shift work, two 12 hour days, then two 12 hour nights then 5 days off. I find the 4 shifts I work I go underground, I feel out of commission and find it difficult to function. Sometimes I wonder if I just need to suck it up and other days I think I deserve to curl up with some ice cream and watch The Biggest Loser.
This set of 4 shifts I have decided to suck it up.
My first two shifts (days) I ran to work, got there VERY early, purchased my coffee, was called crazy by the crew on nights BUT I felt amazing!!! I was in a great mood all day.
I didn't get in my 8 glasses of water, I think I got about 4 glasses each day. The way I see it, is if I hadn't set my goal for 8 I probably would have only drank 2.

*The picture on the right is what a 5am run to work looks like.. AMAZING!!!!*

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Ideas never work unless you do..

As I sit here in my oasis, otherwise known as my parents house, I have decided that my ideas are never going to be turned into actions on their own. Its time to act!!! I have always said "ideas never work unless you do" so it's time I take my own advice.

I am a 30 year old mother of 16 month old identical twin boys, and yes for the past 16 months its safe to say I have been SEEING DOUBLE!!!! 2 cribs, 2 car seats, 2 high chairs, 2,2,2,2,2,2,2 and some days I look in the mirror and think there are 2 of me... I have decided to start this blog for a few reasons 1) writing has always been an outlet for me 2) When I read other blogs I always finish reading and feel so great because I realize I m not the only one 3) I want to be able to share my journey of being a working mother of twins, starting my second 90 day body by vi challenge, beginning to train for a 70.3 ironman race, and maintain my relationships.

I hope you enjoy.....

until next time....